Friday, March 4, 2005

a seriously stressful morning

I am here but not. I am probably going to write this entry and then go take a nap. I'll read updates from my faves list in a little while. Right now I don't have the energy for much.

I had my doctor's appt. this morning. She put me on an ace inhibitor for my blood pressure. It was still high today (156/105) so she gave me a prescription for that. They took more blood. For tests. A fasting sugar test and then another test to determine how high my sugar has averaged over the past 3 months. I don't know how a little bit of blood tells them that but apparently it does. She said when the labs come back Monday or Tuesday, she will call me and she will call me in a prescription. Probably for glucophage. :-/ I have to go back Thursday evening for them to teach me how to test my own sugar levels. She was going to make the appt for Friday but the kids are out of school so I asked her for one sometime on Thursday. They are open late on Thursdays so my appt is at 5:30. Works out well because Chris can stay here with the kids. She also made me an appt with a cardiologist. Because my heartbeat is still really fast and she doesn't know why. So she wants a consult with a cardio doctor. The appt. is April 15th and they told me that I have to pay $1000 before they will even see me. There is no way I can come up with that kind of money in a little over a month. It's just not possible. And it pisses me off that they can't figure out why my heart is beating so damn fast yet the cardiologist won't do anything for me until after we pay him $1000. And that's just a down payment type thing. There will still be a bill afterwards. So I want to scream. Because I am scared and worried and it seems like the doctors don't care about anything but the money. *sigh*

I'm off to take my nap.

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 175

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