Thursday, March 3, 2005

this is getting ridiculous

I don't know how much more of this I can deal with. Freaking mood swings from hell. I'm happy happy happy and then I just snap. Yesterday it was bad and it only got worse. And today it's just horrible.

Elizabeth tried to drive me up a wall yesterday and when Nick got home he was just so.... ugh!... that I locked myself in the bathroom and just cried. I asked him to please help his sister with her shoes so we could leave while I called Chris to tell him where I was going and when I'd be back, and while I'm on the phone with him I hear Nick yell at his sister. "We can't leave until you put your goddamn shoes on." :-o I was so shocked I couldn't even speak. And when I did recover my voice, I sent him to his room because I was angry and I didn't want to say anything I'd later wish I hadn't. Elizabeth follows him into his room and he smacks her. She's screaming at the top of her lungs and holding her arm. And his justification for hitting his sister: She told him to be quiet. :-/ That's at the point that I went in the bathroom and just cried because I have no idea what to do with him. He thinks he's grown and he's pushing limits, I guess to see what he can get away with? I'm not really sure but he's got to start acting like he's got a brain.

So we finally get ready and leave and they are just awful the entire time we are out. When we get home, Chris was here and that poor man (I love him so much!) spoke to me and I just started crying. So he convinced me to go out with him last night to Elizabethtown and Dublin to fix that one wire in the house. We stopped and got something to eat, went to the house in Dublin and fixed the wire (which took forever) and then we went and fed the dogs and we came home. At which point, he was totally frustrated with our children himself and he made them go to bed. (It wasn't just me they wouldn't listen to yesterday.)

This morning, I woke up to the phone ringing. It was my sister and we talked for a little bit. Chris had already left for work and he had got Nick ready for school. Left me a note telling me that he didn't want to wake me up because Elizabeth and I were sleeping so peacefully. She gets up in the morning and comes to lay down with me. She slept until about 9 so I got a chance to talk to Gina and get some stuff done in the house.

She got up and she's been an absolute terror ever since. Tearing into stuff and running around acting like she doesn't have any sense. I know it's a phase she's going through and I sincerely hope it hurries up and goes away because this is getting ridiculous.

I have to go see if I can find the paper that came with the remote. It's lost the code and doesn't work and I can't remember how to program it. 8-

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