Sunday, August 8, 2010

a random assortment

I have been reading random blogs the last few nights that it has been slow at work and have found several new ones to add to the list of blogs that I "read as regularly as I work." Yes, I'm guilty of primarily reading the blogs I like while I work. It passes the time when it gets slow. 

I don't write much anymore. Anywhere. Not here. Not at the other one. Not in the book I keep beside my bed. Not anywhere. -sigh-  I spend too much time trying to put out fires and keep my head above water. I admire the dedication of those who manage to write every day or in some cases, every other day. I can't manage to write a real entry (as was so sweetly pointed out to me by Anastasia) once a week month, let alone make sensible entries every day. That takes some dedication which sadly is missing for me at the moment.

I did finish painting a picture. It's the first one in months and I don't like it but I did finish it. I really should spend more time doing what I enjoy doing and like doing and less time being worried about crap that I can't control. It would definitely be beneficial to me.

I saw a quote the other day that said: "When you are sick and tired of being sick and tired, only THEN can change occur." As I am sick & tired of being sick & tired, I have an idea change may be just around the corner for me. I know I'm the only one who can affect those changes but they are huge and truthfully, it scares me a little lot.

I am tired of feeling blah. I'm tired of having excuses made to me about things and being lied to about things and having things kept from me. I'm tired of being ignored when I bring things up and having the conversations shut down because it's uncomfortable for the other party and I'm tired of sweeping things under the rug. I am human. I have a right to express to my emotions. You don't have to agree with them or like them but out of sheer decency, perhaps you should acknowledge them and set about to change the things you do that causes me to have those emotions you don't like.

I'm going to run along now and find something constructive to do that doesn't involve examining my feelings.

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 175

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