Friday, July 31, 2015

7 Quick Takes # 45

Today is my older sister's birthday. I sent her happy birthday wishes over facebook which is about the only way we communicate these days.

I had originally taken today off but then Brittany's sister decided to get married today and I can't imagine not being able to attend my sister's wedding so I switched with her. She is close with her sisters and I didn't want to be a jerk about it. I'll end up working a 6 day week this week but that's okay.

Elizabeth and I went to the library and finally renewed her library card and she checked out a handful of books. I love that she loves to read now. I remember when it was such a battle. Thank goodness those days are over.

I may end up working quite a bit over the next few months. I'm trying to save money for Christmas and to pay some things off. I can get overtime without anyone being snarky about it so I may do that. I like my days off too which is what makes this so amusing.

I finished the Nora Roberts series I was reading and have to find something new to get into. I'm thinking my next read will be one of the Dark Tower books and then another Nora Roberts series. I act like there is nothing else to read on the planet.

Trying to get into a new routine around my house since school is going to be starting back soon. It's not working as of yet which is we are starting so early. Less than a month left before school starts.

Work was busy tonight as Friday nights generally are busy. At least people were nice.
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Thursday, July 30, 2015

Answer Me This # 17

Answer Me This

1. What's the scariest thing that's ever been in your yard? I would have to say the scariest thing I have ever seen in my yard are snakes. I really don't like snakes and we live in a rural area with a lot of yard that snakes like to hang out in and they give me a mini heart attack every time I see one.

2. Beards. Thumbs up or thumbs down? Definite thumbs up. 

3. If stuff breaks, can you fix it? It depends on what it is that breaks. I'm pretty handy fixing a lot of things but there are some things (like electricity) that while I can fix, I won't.

4. What was your first car? A 1984 Dodge Colt Vista

5. How often do you eat out? Probably too much. Chris and I try to go to dinner at least twice a month, just the two of us.

6. Why is your hair like that? Because it's my hair and I can have it any which way I want to have it. ;-)

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Just Write # 4

If only I could tell you what exactly you meant to for all the years you meant it, then perhaps I wouldn't have this pang of loneliness whenever I think about you. Today is hard because I know it's your birthday and I don't get the opportunity to reach out and say Happy Birthday. Or I love you. Or anything at all really.

I keep up with you vaguely every now and then. We share a mutual friend and every so often, I'll check in and see how you are doing without you being none the wiser. I find myself checking in less and less as time goes by and you have proven that you are no longer a danger to me or to yourself. I guess I was always more worried about the danger you posed to yourself than the danger you posed to me even though everyone else was concerned with my safety. The more time passes, the more stable I see you acting yet I never am tempted to actually contact you. It's as if I have convinced myself that if I were to do that, you would lose the control you seem to working so hard to achieve. I once told you we were bad for each other and I think that's still true in the simplest of ways.So I keep my distance and my silence and every night before I sleep I say a prayer for you.

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Monday, July 27, 2015

i'm too tired to be clever

I originally typed "cleaver" in the title because Freudian slip probably. My sister has annoyed me to the point that I want to slap her and block her number from calling/texting. I don't know why she is doing the things she's doing but she's smarter than that and it's annoying.

My work schedule over the next few weeks is going to be brutal. It will be even more so if Brittany gets the job she applied for at the medical center. I hope that she does because it will be good for her; the hours and location would be a bonus for her. The other part will hate to lose her because I like her and she does a good job.

I started taking the new medicine today and fortunately I haven't had any adverse side effects yet. I know it's early but some people reported bad side effects within a few hours of taking the medicine. So far, so good.

I've got to finish getting organized so I can actually accomplish things when I am not at work. I'm hoping to get some of it done this week before work and when I am off on Thursday.

This probably won't happen but one can hope.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 127

Things I am grateful for today

1. Getting the opportunity to visit my grandparents' grave sites yesterday. Chris was really a sweetheart for letting me change the plans at somewhat the last minute. I just felt it was something I needed to do and yesterday was my day off so we did it.

2. Having the opportunity to see/visit my grandmother's old house again. It's a gorgeous old house but probably in need of seriously major repairs because no one has lived in it for a number of years now. Chris and I talk about somehow buying it from my cousins who stand to inherit it thanks to some sneaky undermining on their father's part but it's just talk. We won't be able to afford it ever and they wouldn't sell it to me even if we could without jacking the price up so high because they could. 

3. Being able to sleep in for awhile today even though I should have gotten up earlier. Chris woke up early but he let me sleep until I woke and then I got ready for work. I must have really needed that sleep.

4. Coffee. In abundant amounts. 

5. There are hummingbirds in our yard. They love the flowers and while we were out yesterday, I bought them some food so that maybe I can get some pictures of them. I really love our house and all the flowers planted in the yard. They make me happy.

Friday, July 24, 2015

7 Quick Takes # 44

People who don't think rules apply to them irritate me. Perhaps I am being too harsh but it grates on my nerves nonetheless.

All of my medicine finally was approved and I will pick it up tomorrow and probably start it on Sunday. I'm not sure yet how I feel about this.

My baby is growing up and it makes me only a tiny bit sad. I get glimpses of the woman she is becoming at times and it puts a smile on my face.

I've lost some weight but can't tell you where it came off because nothing fits differently. This is perplexing me because usually my pants get loose first but this is not the case this time.

Work was busy tonight. Friday and Saturday nights are always like that so I wasn't really surprised by it. People were overall friendly which is always a good thing.

I want to start reading Finders Keepers which we checked out from the library on Wednesday but I'm trying to finish another book first and I sort of want to reread Mr. Mercedes but I have to wait for Elizabeth to finish it first.

I have tomorrow off work. Not sure yet what we are going to do but it will be nice to relax for a bit.

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Thursday, July 23, 2015

Answer Me This # 16

Answer Me This

1. Do you have a smart phone? Yes, A samsung galaxy 4.

2. What is your favorite meal of the day? Supper. Because when I am off work, it's the one meal everyone is home for.

3. Shower or bath? Shower

4. Think of a person you love. How many days have you been in love with that person? I can't do the math but I can tell you it's been since October of 1993.

5. What's the best church you've ever been inside? St. Patricks. It was gorgeous and so ornate and so peaceful. I guess a church should be peaceful but this one was just breathtaking.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Just Write # 3

The alarm goes off and I don't want to move from the bed because I think I just went to sleep. I'm sure I just went to sleep even though I put myself into the bed hours ago. It may time to rethink the evening pot of coffee after coming home from work. Perhaps find a different way to unwind.

I'm doing better than I was with the whole sleeping thing. I don't stay up nearly as late or sleep nearly as long in the mornings as I used to do but still, today, I don't want to move at all. Let me pull the blankets up and just let the world pass by. Just for today.

Instead I shove my hand out and silence the alarm and make my feet hit the floor. Then I head for the kitchen to turn on the coffee pot. If I have to be up, I may as well be caffeinated.

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Monday, July 20, 2015


I've been following the developing story of Sandra Bland with an interest. My newsfeeds are full of articles and commentary and all sorts of things. I've been paying attention to the narrative in this case and it infuriates me that the "news" media keeps bringing up a video post Ms. Bland did a few months ago where she mentioned being depressed and having PTSD after all the police brutality news over the past few months. For them to act as if that blog post from March is relevant to the events surrounding her death is ridiculous and I can see why people are so angry about it.

The "news" is basically criminalizing the victim and while I've seen it a lot when people like Eric Garner/Trayvon Martin/ insert hundreds of other names here, for some reason this one made me pay a bit more attention.

I hope the US Department of Justice will pay attention to the petition that has been circulating and will take over the investigation into her death. I know the Texas Rangers are investigating and the investigation is being overseen by the FBI but for some reason, this does not give me comfort or hope. Perhaps I have woke up. Whatever the reason for it, I intend to "stay woke."

May Ms. Bland's family find some peace. And some justice.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 126

Things I am grateful for today

1. The visiting preacher from Father's Day weekend was hired as the permanent preacher at Faith Baptist Church. This is a good thing for the church.

2. We are getting some much needed rain outside right now. We could do without the thunder and lightning but beggars can't be choosers.

3. I had an appointment with the doctor on Thursday and other than it taking forever, it went really well.

4. It was a busy weekend (sold out both nights.) Tonight is quieter which is just what I need today.

5. I have fruit to go with my supper tonight. (That's probably sounds like a weird thing but to me, it isn't.)

Friday, July 17, 2015

7 Quick Takes # 43

Codi went home. I was upset that I had to make her go but I needed a break. There was only so much I could handle.

I went to the doctor. I got new prescriptions. It will be next week before I can have them filled but I do have them.

Elizabeth came to work with me today and she did a good job. She worked 3 to 6 and Susan paid her for working. She was on the moon because she didn't think she was going to get paid. She just wanted to work with me for awhile.

I have Sunday off and I am hoping to go to church. Mama sent me a picture of the sign welcoming the new reverend. He's the preacher I heard preach a few Sundays ago and he's going to be their permanent preacher. They are all excited about this turn of events.

I finished 2 books last week and have started another. It's difficult to get any reading done when you are only reading at work. I really need to fix that dilemma.

We are sold out tonight which is a great thing for us. I think we will sell out again tomorrow too even though there aren't many reservations. Saturdays have a way of being busy despite what the numbers say.

Next week is pay week thank goodness because I really need to go grocery shopping. I'm going to be piecing meals together this next week. We've done more with less before so this won't be that big of an issue. It's just a week.

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Thursday, July 16, 2015

Answer Me This # 15

Answer Me This

1. Do you have a land line? Yes. We initially got rid of it in 2005 but then got one this year when we moved back to Fayetteville because it gave us a better deal on our internet/cable package.

2. What is your least favorite food? Anything alfredo. 

3. What's on your summer reading list? My summer reading list is approximately 100 books long. Right now I am reading the Dark Towers series.

4. Is there something that people consistently as for your advice on? What is it? No specific thing that people ask advice on because they know that I don't generally give advice. I'm a great listener which is something people come to me for.

5. What's the most physically demanding thing you've ever done? Not entirely sure. Hiking a mountain?

6. How do you feel about massages? I'd really like to have one. I've never had one but I'm not adverse to the idea.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Just Write # 2

The chiming of the clock brings me back to the present. It's dark outside and there is lightning in the distance. It won't storm because we seem to have some sort of force field that makes the storms go around these days but it looks ominous and that's enough to drive the traffic in off the road.

Making change for a guest and I lose my count because he's talking to me about the weather they just encountered on the interstate. His wife chimes in about how ugly it was and all I can do is nod my head and smile but inside my stomach was churning. There are places that would give their eyeteeth for even a fraction of the rain they just came through and all they want to do is complain. I'm know everyone, including myself, is guilty of being ungrateful but today it's an exercise in tongue biting to not tell people to shut up.

Some people don't have a shelter from the rain, At least you were in your safe cozy car. Stop complaining so much. It's not becoming.

And with that, I am becoming my mother.

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Monday, July 13, 2015

Random things

My head is hurting.

I made an appointment for this Thursday to see the doctor and get prescriptions written and a new med prescribed. I've decided that I can't take care of everyone else if I don't take care of me first.

I'm going to send Codi home this week I think. She and Elizabeth need a break from one another and I need a break period from the dramatics of my sister and her girlfriend.

I think I'm going to go try to read a book in between helping people at work.

Sunday, July 12, 2015

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 125

Things I am grateful for today

1. Lizards. Colorful lizards all in my back yard.

2. I am grateful that whomever had the house before us loved flowers and planted them all around the house and the shop and just everywhere. They are blooming and it is so incredibly beautiful.

3. My daughter and my niece.

4. Coloring books for big kids (aka: me) I love to color and it's convenient now that they have decided coloring for adults is perfectly normal and a good stress reliever. I could have told them that years ago.

5. A nice snuggly bed to crawl into shortly.

Friday, July 10, 2015

7 Quick Takes # 42

This summer is flying by and I'm not really ready to face the fact that school starts back in just over a month.

I have been paying attention to the sales papers that have been coming with the newspaper because Beth is going to need a whole new wardrobe for school. Not only has she grown taller, but her old school was a uniform school and her new one isn't. We had tons of uniform things and very few basic tops/slacks/jeans/skirts.

Shoe shopping will also be on the agenda. I despise shoe shopping. Who am I kidding? I despise shopping in general but shoe shopping is always a battle.

Elizabeth has more fashion sense than I do (she probably has more in her pinkie finger than I have in my whole self so I rarely veto an item of clothing she wants unless it shows more skin than makes me comfortable for her 12 year old self or if there is some saying on that could be misconstrued.

I do, however, veto shoes right and left. Somehow sparkly heels don't seem appropriate for school and she has yet to learn that shoes which are pretty are usually really uncomfortable.

One thing I don't have to battle over is hair. She keeps her hair long and styles it herself and it always looks nice so I don't venture an opinion about it. 

As for picking my battles, I'm lucky that she's not overly defiant and she recognizes what looks good on her and what doesn't. It keeps my stress level in check. 
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Thursday, July 9, 2015

Answer Me This # 14

Answer Me This

1. What's something you intended to do today, but didn't? Read a book

2. What's your favorite grilling recipe? Steaks or pork chops on the grill.  A little bit of marinade. A whole lot of yum.

3. What movie did you see most recently? John Wick

4. Would you say your tendency is to over or under react to medical situations? Over react when I should not be concerned and under react when I should be concerned. I'm weird.

5. Do you squeeze the toothpaste tube or roll it? Squeeze it much to Miss Elizabeth's dismay. She dislikes that.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Our own fireworks

It was a lot cooler than the photo would have you believe. So much so that we went & bought 2 more of the big packs to set off.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Just Write # 1

There's nothing more incredible than watching your children learn and grow. I'm watching Elizabeth do that this summer with a measure of maturity that defies logic. She's a passionate child with a serious dose of attitude at times but watching her step up this summer and take charge in areas that she take charge makes my heart swell.

There is nothing that she won't be able to do later in life. She's got that kind of determination.

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Monday, July 6, 2015


Elizabeth likes to cook. This is a bonus for us because she'll cook when no one else particularly feels like cooking. It's also a bad thing because she will get in the kitchen and experiment and leave behind a huge mess. Her baking has improved quite a bit though which is good. This is turning into a pros and cons

I've successfully finished reading a book. Go Set A Watchman comes out in a few days and I'm still on the fence about whether I want to read it or not. I'm leaning towards not but who knows. Curiosity may get the better of me and I'll end up reading it.

I need to make some doctor's appointments but I'm procrastinating. Mostly because I just dislike going to the doctor. I'll do it soon because I will need refills on my medicines.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 124

Things I am grateful for today

1. Our 4th of July celebration was fireworks at home (which were surprisingly fun) and cooking hot dogs with all the trimmings.

2. I have a few new things to read which makes my book-worm-ish self happy.

3.  Watching little kids play in the lobby always brightens my day.

4. Good changes are coming and I am super excited about them.

5. Coffee

Friday, July 3, 2015

7 Quick Takes # 41

Things I will not do: ask for favors. I don't ask for help even when I really need it which is something I am working to overcome.

Things I will do: anything that anyone else needs. Ask and it's yours if it's within my power to give it to you.

Something I haven't done in a long time that I miss: cross stitching. My aunt Wilma taught me how when I was 5 and I have several kits at home waiting to be made but I never seem to have the time or the energy to work on one of them. This makes me sad.

Something I am determined to do more of: Take time for me. Whether that is coloring or drawing or painting or reading or writing or the above mentioned cross stitch or just sitting back watching the wind blow with a cup of coffee in my hand, I vow to do more for me for self care.

Favorite smart phone game: I love Candy Crush and Word streak (formerly scramble with friends) and the game 2048 (even though I have yet to win with that one.)

The last person I talked on the phone with was April. We had an hour long conversation about everything under the sun. I miss being able to talk to her for hours on end. This is what happens when you both have lives and things going on.

Goal for next week: finish the book I am currently reading.

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Thursday, July 2, 2015

Answer Me This # 13

Answer Me This

1. When's the last time you got a new bathing suit? In May. I actually got 2. One is black with flower panels down the side and I got a purple tankini because I liked it and I like color.

2. Who made the last incoming call on your phone? My sister.

3. Do you have a tattoo? No. I always wanted one but I never got one.

4. How many dinner plates are in your house? 14. It was 2 sets of service for 8 but 2 plates (1 from each set broke.)

5. Do you have an accent? I'm from the South. I don't think I have an accent but everyone I come into contact with says I do.

GIST - The Sunday Edition # 175

It's been awhile since I have done one of these although my offline gratitude practice remains on point. In no particular order, here ar...