This is supposed to be a joyous time of year but I'm feeling less than in the optimal holiday spirit. I can't even explain why really except that having a close relative die unexpectedly removed the little holiday spirit that I had managed to obtain.
I haven't decorated and while I had been meaning to do that, I'm going to cut myself some slack because I recognize my limits and this is just beyond that. It will be okay that holiday decorations don't go up minus the wreath on the door. I am giving myself a pass.
I am worth that.